I actually really hate it when fruit looks good but tastes like shit. I TRY TO BE HEALTHY, AND THIS IS WHAT I GET!?!?!? this
is why I have trust issues sigh.
all petty problems aside, The Hobbit was flipping amazing. a tad slow to start off with, but once it got going, it was exciting and riveting and flippin' hil-ariousssss at times. not to mention that Thorin Oakenshield is now my favourite dwarf 8)
so, it's New Year's Eve, and what am I doing? watching season one of Friends, and maybe fit in some Lord of the Rings, and read the Hobbit. did someone say thriving social life?!?!? but it's a good way to end what's been an...average year.
I'll admit, I've had better years LOL. I mean, it's been a year where I've reached milestones - finishing my HSC and graduating from 13 years of schooling, but I feel sort of lost with what to do now. I was excited before about leaving behind the routine and spoon-feeding of school, but it's only hit me how independent I've got to be. It was always my teachers motivating me to do well, to do better, but now, will all that motivation to have to come from me? :|
I don't know if I felt closer to anyone throughout the year. Sure, I got rid of toxic friendships, and surrounded myself with people who made me happy, but not being able to see them everyday for the past three months has left the impression of "out of sight, out of mind" as opposed to "absence makes the heart grow fonder". Ugh, I'm probably coming off as needy or insensitive (Idk, take your pick :L), but I guess I'm just ready to meet new people. Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely going to stay in touch with my closest chums and all those who are dear to me, but I'm ready for new stories, new friendships.
the year's been rather stressful and tiring, with all the insane studying and procrastinating, late nights, grumpy mornings, messy desks, increasing expenditure on chocolate and various other comfort foods...but one thing I really came to love was how my friends and cohort all helped each other out, all motivating one another to keep on pushing ahead, that it was almost done. And how it all paid off, with HAHS ranking 20th this year in the HSC in NSW :D
It'd be incredibly selfish if I didn't thank my crew or my classmates as well as my teachers for all their wonderful and ongoing support this year with schoolwork, my petty problems, and for all their encouragement. You know who you are, and I am so
grateful for all you have done for me.
I guess it was the last two months that really made this year, this
year. It's true when they say that travel is the best way to learn. Going to China, Queensland and Tasmania after my HSC, and meeting and talking to people who weren't doing the HSC or supporting me in the HSC was a big swing back into reality. Once the next two months are over, life still goes on. Learn more, work more. No ones going to care about that 4 digit number anymore, to get yourself places, you have to be a good person, and be willing to work your butt off and make sacrifices.
But all philosophical and deep stuff aside, I really did have the best time these past two months. China was exhilarating, tiring and crazy since it's a totally different type of environment; if you're bored at 9PM at night, just go shopping! Whereas Tasmania was quiet, relaxed, and it was more "me time". Queensland released the little kiddie in me, going to all the amusement parks, and eating nothing but hotdogs, churros and pasta. It's been a real treat hanging with ma franz, doing something aside from not so very productive study groups :L Overall, post HSC is prettay suhweeet :D
And now, the big elephant in the room - ATAR and university. I could avoid it as much as I want, but in truth, it's my gateway to what I'll be doing next year. I'm happy with my ATAR, and glad that all the hard work paid off, but ugh, I really wish I had given what I wanted to do next year more thought. UAC preferences are due in 4 days for the main round offers, and I'm still confused. Being swallowed by a thousand handbooks and brochures and letters has left me VERY frustrated, and very intent on dropping it all and just opening up a bakery.
a final thank you to my parents. Far out, I've been a right little shit this year, with my mood swings and laziness around the house as I exclaim that I must "study". Mum, Dad, thanks for driving me to tutoring and spending money on tutoring, thanks for cooking for me, turning off my light when I've accidentally fallen asleep on the bed whilst revising. Thank you so much, and I promise to be better next year!
next year is only tomorrow though, and I'm not sure if I look forward to it. hopefully....it'll be a year to remember.
2013 RESOLUTIONS (SO FAR):
- get a job to pay for 2014 Summer Europe trip
- go see HAHS Guys and Dolls!!!!! n_n
- START DRIVING. C'MON HOLLY, YOU'RE ALMOST TWO YEARS LATE.
- read more books ya uncultured swine
^ get me one and I will love you forever.
so sorry that this has been such a long post, you're pretty much set for 2013 if you managed to read it all, just sayin'.