so here's the final letter :L I know I know, it's about time :P

to my reflection,
brush your hair. clean your glasses. erh, wash your feet?

You've got to learn to let down your pride a little but. Stop taking things for granted. Learn to say sorry. Know that your friends are forever, and they ain't leaving any time sooner. Relax. Move on, it does not do to dwell on things. See that the best things are right in front of you. Learn perserverance, and don't just give up; it may rain now, but the storm can't last forever. Stop wishing for things, and do what you can to make those wishes come true. Sometimes the people you thought you always knew and trusted can surprise you. We all make mistakes. Note that mistakes it plural. Realise that mass organisation and being a control freak can't stop some catastrophes from happening.

That's what I'd like to tell my reflection.

Amy sent me an email, titled 'The meaning of life'. I'd like to thank her, because I read this to myself every day as a pick-me-up, and a self pep talk when I feel shit, so in a way, I tell my reflection this everyday :P:

'...I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received...'
Ephesians 4:1 (NIV)
Paul says: '...I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.'
What would that life look like?
Well, life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many friends you have on Facebook, it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or would like to. It isn't about what sport you play, or how well you played or didn't play last week. It's not about your hair, your shoes, the colour of your skin, where you live or where you go to school.
In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or even whether that uni accepts you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life just isn't about that.

It's about choosing to love, not hate.
It's about trust, contentment, and compassion.
It's about sticking up for your friends, and praying for your enemies.
It's about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and encouraging others.
It's about what you say and what you mean.
It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.
Most of all, it's about choosing to use your life to touch another's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.
These choices are what life's about.

grr. can't get to sleep. it's 12:34 AM, hehe :P that time looks so pretty :D
Usually, I've been able to get sleep just fine. I fall asleep within half an hour or less, my body clock isn't messed up and confused, and my fear of the dark has alleviated a bit.
But, recently, something keeps nagging at me. I think I need to get out and do something spiritually and mentally refreshing, like go to the Botanic Gardens and sit there all day and read a book, or go iceskating by myself. I used to go movies and iceskating a lot by myself, and yeah, I would look like a loser with no friends....but I enjoy my own company too much sometimes :P Sometimes, I get more out of just being alone then being with friends. I know that sounds horrible, but everyone needs their alone time. So, maybe, sometime soon, after all the Christmas and New Year chaos, and the January outings and stuff, I'm going to make it a habit where I just run away (I'll tell the Mammy and Papa first :L) for one day and do something by myself.
also, I think this 'me time' helped me overcome my massive fear of the dark....slightly. I think I was more confident and sure of myself that I wasn't really scared anymore. It released a lot of tension and all my insecurities :D
And I know that this sounds stupid, but when I was out gliding on the ice, basking in the sun's warmth, watching lil kids run with mighty smiles when I walked down the road, or just playing who can swing the highest with myself....it felt like that nothing bad could ever happen. everything felt so perfect and joyous that the scary dark would never be able to break my happiness :D
so for now, Heroic Hollyyy is your hero who works hours from sunrise to sunset :P
hope you all are having a great hollyday!
Have a safe flight and an awesome trip to China, Joki. I love you lots <3
Danica and Mel, likewise, have a safe trip and have heeps of fun :D:D:D
Anyone else going overseas or interstate, I wish you all the best :D
and also, hope you all are getting into the Christmas spirit :D I know I am hehehe, I mean, its in my name, HAHAHA, geddit, "HOLLY"!

I hate my neighbour's dog so friggin' much. If it doesn't shut up by tomorrow night, I'm gonna kill it, cook it, and feed it to my family, like a true Chinese would. Haha, this reminds me of Gloria :L:L

I don't get it when people text/call/msn me, saying 'HEY HOLLY, CAN YOU PLEASE DO _____?, K THNX BYE', and then they go offline or hang up, or don't reply, and I'm just like '.____. but I never agreed to do it....'. HAHAHA, but nah, I would do whatever you lovely ladehz bid of me :)

my grandma and bro are a tad cranky. so, I thought that baking them some chocolate cuppycakes would cheer them up ^^ but then I couldn't find the cupcake baking tin, so looks like we're all cranky now >:(

I just finished reading The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time, and it's a wonderful book. It's different, and I really enjoyed it. It's not a long book, and you can get it done in a day or two :D I hope they make a movie out of it :D:D:D:D

I went to an African Xmas party last night, which was hosted by my Mum's colleague. So. Much. Fun. My respect for Africans all over the world just grew by r57348059623956237895612309562310894576109067532890567295t467238975983268453 respect points. WHOOOOOOO!

I can't wait til Christmas. So pumped :D

dear _________,

you'll find out one day :P
you won't ever expect it. it'll be the strangest news ever. you might even be a bit scared LOL.
there's a lot I want to say. I don't think I'm afraid, just unsure of how to say it to you without you freaking out.

holly.

to Amy Mathai, Amy Mckee, Mariel, Danielle, Koshila, Nikkida, Anna G and Monica;

you girls are the absolute best, I couldn't ask for better best friends. you've all helped and done so much to make me the best person I can be. I've had so much fun with all of youse over the years, and every moment is golden. I've learnt a lot from you ladehz as well :D All of youse give me encouragement, advice, and a shoulder to cry on.
(haha, I know this is something you would write in a birthday card, not in a blog about a significant life change :L)
but honestly, what you girls are to me, and doing what I have written above has changed my life. I wake up everyday with more happiness, knowing that I'll be talking and laughing and hugging one of you. I go to sleep every night knowing that the next day, you guys will be there. I have trust and faith in you all. that changed my life.
and, I've only lived 15 years of my life. for the rest of it, I'm hoping that you guys will be there to bring more joy, and help me make any changes to my future life for the better. I sincerely hope (and know) that we'll bee diz *crosses fingers* for a long time coming; we'll be having wheelchair races and squealing over senior discount cards when were 100 :P

with lots of love,

Holly.

dear Norman,

When I say 'I love old people!', you are a very strong example of that LOL :D
So for my dear readers, Norman was the man who drove Christina, Kerr, Sierra and I around Glenfield when we were doing Red Shield Appeal :D
It was heeps of fun, and you're a really cool, funny guy. HURRAH FOR NORMAN!
And we raised a lot of money....probably because you knew the areas that give out lots of donations :P
But yeah. Be our leader next year please :):):)

Holly.

for starters, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHANNN! GO AND DRIVE AND HAVE SEX AND DO SOMETHING WILDDDDD!

and onto a more serious tone...

I generally don't mind being asked to do things; it's a small favour and it'll be over in a matter of minutes. But, it starts pissing me off when people take advantage of this ._____.
YOU'RE NOT DOING IT RIGHT!
WHY ARE YOU TAKING SO LONG?
*SIGH* WHY DID I ASK YOU FOR HELP?
look, mr/mrs/ms/miss stupid fuckface, I can answer those questions for you.
you think you are massively superior to everyone, and you think you have the authority to boss everyone around. you elevate yourself so high! :@ you take people's help for granted. you never think of other people. you only care about yourself and getting the job done. the little peppy 'thanks!' at the end don't mean jackshit. YOU DON'T MEAN JACKSHIT. PISS OFF. I HATE YOU.

(^ many of my blogs end like that, don't they? :S)

but yeah...I hope everyone's having a great hollyday :D:D:D HAHAHA SEE WHAT I DID B)

weeeeeell, I guess this letter requires a significant pinky promise...right? LOL, as in, one that was heartfelt and passionate etc. etc. :P

so here goes. This ones for you :)

dear ____,

Back then, which now seems like eons ago (only ten years though LOL), we pinky promised to never forget each other, as you got into the car that would carry you for an eleven hour trip to Melbourne. It's been ten years since that moment, and I'm very proud to say that we've kept this pinky promise. With hundreds and thousands of kilometres between us, we have defied distance and maintained our friendship. It's probably one of the biggest and best things I've done in my life, and you're a part of it. And it all started off with that pinky promise.

with lots of love,

Holly Wang.

dear ____,

I hope everything works out fine. You'll get through this! You have so much support. You didn't deserve this; it's not your fault.

Love, Holly.

To Year 10, class of 2012:
you guys are absolute legends. I'm so glad I went to Formal and spent it with you all; I swear, I don't know what I'm going to do in 2 years time. I don't wanna think about it :(

To 10I,
omgsh. I am going to miss our class so much in the next two years. You guys were the reason why I survived at school everyday. Class was the best, and it was so funny. Yeah, we were all from different groups....but we were the perfect combination :P I'm gonna miss you guys so much, and we have to finish the paper men next year!

To my group,
BEST GROUP OF FRIENDS I COULD EVER HAVE. TOO MANY GOOD MEMORIES THAT I CAN'T RECORD. BFFLZ FOR EVER AND EVER.

To 8R Asian Corner + One,
Miss you guys. I have English in our Asian Corner + One room, and it's sad when I'm not sitting there, and when I see people other than us sitting there :(


and just then:

hollywentcabolli says: hehehe (A) [angel emoticon on MSN]

with your angel eyes©mariel productions says: is that an angel? cos i always think its a grandma with a cool hat LOL

LOLOLOLOL, I LOVE YOU MARIEL <3 X 578934570702