grr. can't get to sleep. it's 12:34 AM, hehe :P that time looks so pretty :D
Usually, I've been able to get sleep just fine. I fall asleep within half an hour or less, my body clock isn't messed up and confused, and my fear of the dark has alleviated a bit.
But, recently, something keeps nagging at me. I think I need to get out and do something spiritually and mentally refreshing, like go to the Botanic Gardens and sit there all day and read a book, or go iceskating by myself. I used to go movies and iceskating a lot by myself, and yeah, I would look like a loser with no friends....but I enjoy my own company too much sometimes :P Sometimes, I get more out of just being alone then being with friends. I know that sounds horrible, but everyone needs their alone time. So, maybe, sometime soon, after all the Christmas and New Year chaos, and the January outings and stuff, I'm going to make it a habit where I just run away (I'll tell the Mammy and Papa first :L) for one day and do something by myself.
also, I think this 'me time' helped me overcome my massive fear of the dark....slightly. I think I was more confident and sure of myself that I wasn't really scared anymore. It released a lot of tension and all my insecurities :D
And I know that this sounds stupid, but when I was out gliding on the ice, basking in the sun's warmth, watching lil kids run with mighty smiles when I walked down the road, or just playing who can swing the highest with myself....it felt like that nothing bad could ever happen. everything felt so perfect and joyous that the scary dark would never be able to break my happiness :D
so for now, Heroic Hollyyy is your hero who works hours from sunrise to sunset :P
hope you all are having a great hollyday!
Have a safe flight and an awesome trip to China, Joki. I love you lots <3
Danica and Mel, likewise, have a safe trip and have heeps of fun :D:D:D
Anyone else going overseas or interstate, I wish you all the best :D
and also, hope you all are getting into the Christmas spirit :D I know I am hehehe, I mean, its in my name, HAHAHA, geddit, "HOLLY"!