21. someone you judged by their first impression
well, this letter isn't directed towards anybody in particular, but basically everyone....in a way :S
yeah, yeah, I know I sound like a judgemental bitch, but I judge everyone, even if it's not on first impressions. It's just this thing, where, you look at their eyes, or whatever, and try to figure out who they are. You try to figure out whether they are your next best friend, or next best enemy. You try to figure out whether they'll influence your life in a good or bad way. You think 'should I introduce myself, or stay away?'
to me, first impressions don't really count for anything, and besides, I can't really find out much from first impressions anyway - I'm not one of those girls who can full figure out the person just by looking at them - you know like in that Modern Family episode where Mitchell and Clare play a game where they try to guess and figure out what kind of person any passing by stranger is? yeah, I can't do that.
but I have this lil voice inside my head that just says 'yes' or 'no'. quite simple really - I don't have to analyse any impression I get.
and then there's the joke first impressions - she's from cabramatta, she's an asian tb. he goes to hurlstone, he's a nerd steve irwin farmer. he's got a rat tail, he's a fob speaking dick and STAY AWAY. just typical stereotypes that influence judgements that are fun to make, but you never take them to heart :L
I don't know whether lots of people do it, but I know I do it a lot - and yeah, it's a bad thing :/
but I can't change it - it's already there. it just.....happens. It's part of my personality. it shapes part of who I am.
even though I've written a whole lotta shit just then on how I judge people and what first impressions mean to me, at the end of the day, it's just kind of....meaningless. I mean, everything just seems to fall into place. I judge that someone isn't such a good person, but then, we end up talking, acknowledging each other, and the impression disappears. I judge that someone's a nice person, introduce myself, and find out that she's the biggest slut hoe - and we never talk to each other again.
so yeah, here's the letter.
to all those that I have judged,
I could judge you as a nice person, a dick person, or a boring person. and for the dick and boring judgements, I'm sorry I judged even if you are a dick.
that's all.
love, Holly.